I guess this is just my way of escaping my thoughts.
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Random:
Days are counting, and I still don't have the guts to convey my feelings. Maybe I'm just shy or I'm one of those typical "torpe". I really don't care much about if my friends call me like this but deep inside I know I'm wasting my time waiting for the right time to propose to this lovely lady.
Indeed, I'm longing to have someone.I have my family and friends but this someone I'm talking about is,someone whom I can talk to,share my dreams and would give me a hug during the cold nights of my life.
I would love to have someone I can hit the outskirts of the city with, watch last full shows, overlook the city and just talk about anything and everything. Someone who thinks that there is a Supreme Being. This someone should smile a lot. And it seems that this someone is unique. I know she is and she will always be.
But what hurts most is that I can't tell her what I feel.
As the guy, I was expected to make the first move. Eventually, I got too good at lying to myself. Telling myself to wait more for the right time. When will be this right time, I know I'm just making excuses and I can't fool myself. The system in me just wanted to break loose and shout to the world that I'm a dirtbag.
And maybe Neverland was also an excuse.
But even for once, How I wish Peter pan can bring me and this someone to Neverland, where we can stay forever,happily.
Anton :) <3