I'm so disheartened this past few days, I want to cry and give up. Stupid heart,please stop beating even once. Or should I blame my pituitary gland for excreting endorphins that keeps me falling too much in love.
If she's not happy with me anymore, I can't blame her, It's all my fault. I do love her so much up to the point I tried to keep track of my weight, get a good haircut and try to look neat, try to put on a good/decent dress, just for her... its just that I can't keep up with people's expectations.
And now I'm starting to understand bit by bit that there will always be this person who had her a long time ago. Who made her heart beat once. Who will always had her even when she's already mine.
And Will I be able to bear more pain. If someday I need to set her free?
Why do I need to fall this much and bear all this pain. Why do I need to catch a bright star if I could content myself just seeing it every night. Maybe that bright star above fills my heart with simple joys and contentment... and when everything falls down, maybe looking up and wishing I was there is just a glimpse of hope.